Recently, I have been thinking about “letting go”. Yes, the good practice that makes and shapes you into the person whom you meant to be or more simply the person whom you were all along without all of those “fucks” that you and society have placed onto you. I do know that the journey of taking on a lot more and especially those beliefs have to do with being an empath and an Indigo Child from my own personal experience. I recall, one day during my confirmation retreat we were ask to go find an items that represents us. Mine happen to be the Snapple Lemonade Bottle, since I said at the time that the bottle represents that I tend to bottle up my emotions. I remember that the retreat organizer said to me that she hoped one day that I would release it. Yes, I have bottled a lot of stuff up over the years. I’m not going to lie, but it really wasn’t until my mid 30’s that I actually had the courage to work on my PTSD, anxiety, fear and depression issues.
Last year at this time, I finally bit the bullet and embark on what would be one of the most changing events of my life. A trip to a Dharma center to take an oath of silence for a 10 day Vipassana course out in the Berkshires of Western Massachusetts. It was a journey that was way over due. I really was going to go sit and make friends with myself when I got home from living in Japan, but that wasn’t the right time. I debated it for years until I reached a point where I was like, I really need to honor myself not everyone else problems or else I’m going to eat myself alive. I basically listen to my inner wisdom as my own inner wisdom. It wasn’t an easy journey those 10 days of silence, but I will admit that I haven’t been the same since after it. I realize that I’m in a growth phase.
Thoughts arise and go. Some are painful and I came close to killing myself from them at the beginning of year to be honest. It’s not fun when you have the gift of “feeling too much from within”. I have had my own family look at me strange since I will not take a prescription drug for the mood swings. Good, god! No, no, no. The thought of them have not settled well with me for years. I remember a psychologist mentioning them to me when I was 16 and it didn’t sit well with me. Trust that inner gut feeling of yours. The truth is, if you read the work of Dr Emoto and his water theory in The Hidden Messages in Water book, he talks about how prescriptions are actually made from the consciousness of the person making them, if they are producing positive or negative thoughts. As much as it is painful to go threw those tough emotions, you need them to rise up and to surrender to them in order for them to be truly released from your cells. It’s not an easy journey, but sometimes on our own personal journey, we are faced with dark stuff that we must work threw. Now, these emotions that I’m talking about were not mine, I must had picked them up from others from stressful situations or they were in fact left over from past lifetimes that were meant to be released. There have actually been a lot of movement astrology speaking that is stirring up a lot of stuff from the past making you take a good look to be released right now. It is actually health to cry and let yourself have your own time to process these emotions. Shine new light into the cells of your body and cry away the old heavy toxic stuff that no longer serves you.
Ah, some of my favorite things to release the emotions are of course daily silent mediations. I love crystals, some are very powerful in helping you to release what no longer serves you. Listen closely to what your body is telling you and to match it up with the appropriate crystal. Burn items that no longer serve you or give you a sense of joy. Purge your belonging and clothes, donate them way. If they don't give you joy and happiness, best to get rid of them. Yoga, is such a wonderful practice. Besides having an asanas practice, I love to chant the seed sound for each of the 7 major chakras first thing in the morning. Yes, chanting OM has a beautiful power to it. Use mantras and sanskrit chants to move around your energy. Acupunture is wonderful to balance the chi in your body. Go on a detox and pay special attention to what you have been eating. Cutting out gluten and dairy is hard at first, but once you do, you will be given more energy. Asking bad spirits to simply leave you. Yes, you must cut your cords, call on Archangel Michael and shield yourself with protection. My favorite are the protective bubble and a white pyramid. Detoxing baths are great. I love making my own onsen if you would call it. I really do miss going to the onsen of Japan. For my own personal one, I usually use epson salt or Himalayan sea salt, apple cider vinegar, baking soda and essential oils. Ah, bliss to be soaking in the tub for 20 minutes or more. I will admit that going to a float tank with 900 pounds of epson salt in sensory deprivation tank is pure bliss, fly me to the moon. Lately, I can feel all of what no longer serves me to fall apart. Shirodhara massage to activate the pineal gland or your third eye is beautiful with chakra. Definitely burning sage or palo santo for an earthly incense to clean your aura from negativity. Lastly, being in nature, if it’s the beach, woods or bush it’s a great place to connect to the sound of silence.
It’s all about learning to let go off all that no longer serves you. There’s no right or wrong way to do it. There are more than enough tools and resources for you to work with out there. It’s all about Be Here Now and to embrace the present moment without judgement. Remember that you can always come home to the breath.