Trust the Faith, Trust the Path That I'm On...

“The tide is high but I'm holding on
I'm gonna be your number one
I'm not the kind of girl who gives up just like that
Oh, no”
Custom House Warf, Portland, Maine
Well, it’s been a dark start to spring this year. The weather hasn’t been too corporate to lift the moods from the dark winter I had. But, in hinds sight it has allowed me to go within on this journey into the heart. Some might think that I’m mad to be taking a step like this on my blog that is about my travels & photography, it’s part of the creation process. In order for me to create at the level that I can connect to in my own energy field to do so, I have to take the risks the great leap of faith into working on myself. I have struggle for a good part of my life to gain acceptance from others, but really I was searching for was acceptance from myself. It’s never been a question about love from my own family, it’s more a clash of belief systems from a left brain thinking when I’m clearly a right brain thinking & feeler. I let my heart guide me, not that pesky monkey brain. It’s about getting rid of limiting beliefs from the left brain that likes to hold you into to a point where you want to let out a big scream. Yes, I feel like I’ve been in that Michael & Janet Jackson video Scream about a call for more creativity for me to set myself free. Yes, setting myself free from the blockages is what I’m on. I’ve gone deep into the Rabbit Hole, but that’s my journey. I’m sure I’m an inspiration for most. Do me a favor & don’t tell me that you know what I’ve been going through if you clearly haven’t gone as deep as I have been. Just take my wisdom with a grain of salt. I just have been willing to upset others to take the leap into what I really believe. It’s about self love, freeing me from a group that I don’t really agree with. It takes real courage to break free from the tribal belief system to figure out who I am to be of service. Maybe I have inspired others who I’m related to, friends & people who I don’t even know, to actually seek the truth for them.
“Oh, why you look so sad?
Tears are in your eyes
Come on and come to me now
Don't be ashamed to cry
Let me see you through
'Cause I've seen the dark side too”
~The Pretenders
Jimi Hendrix Stamps, Shine Some Creativity
I feel like I’m Princess Leia asking Yoda for guidance to get rid of the limiting beliefs to become a much stronger Jedi Knight. I’ve basically have challenge everything at a much deeper level now on my path. I’ve found myself working with healers more so than the therapist approach to this. I was sick of going around in circles from what I have experience in therapy from the past. I’ve read Dr Masaru Emoto’s Book Hidden Messages in Water many years ago where he goes into depth about the pharmaceutical industry & how drug makers are putting their emotions onto the pills that they are making in laboratories to help others. This made me scared to know that I can be affected by other people’s thoughts. I knew that I was affected from other peoples energies cos I’m extremely empathic & was sick of feeling like s**t from it. These we just some of my wake up calls on what really brought me to healers this time around. It also came down to do I really want to go around the circle like a lost hamster on the wheel or serious take control of my own life for me & only me, not for the sake of what others want me to do. The answer was to find the power within to set myself free from the pain & suffering.
I basically sat yesterday reading a phenomenal book by Jill Bolte Taylor PhD My Stroke of Insight, about Dr Taylor actually having stroke & was fully aware that she was having on with a part of herself dying during a very traumatic event that lead her to a newfound awareness of living from a much more heart center state over a thinking path that she was on. I could relate to the book in many ways from experience trauma myself, to challenging beliefs that were holding me back to wanting to make a better change for myself. I highly recommend this book. It’s all about the powers that are gain & raising your vibration frequency. I just wish that these ideas & concepts were taught in school in addition to the regular curriculum to shift the views of others on top of teaching about how beautiful the world is. It’s sad to say that Jamie Oliver couldn’t change the school lunch program in this country like he did in Great Britain with great success. Why are so many people afraid to go into the unknown? Free yourself from the beliefs of the past & plant better seeds to blossom into a beautiful healthier you from the inside out rather then the old way of the outside in. I’ve found some great YouTube talks recently that do talk about the awakening process, Does Reality Shift as Our Conciseness Evolves by Deepak Chopra , Changes in Conciseness by Dean Radin & The Key to Effortless Manifestation by Abraham . This stuff is real, just put down the talk radio, news & other sources of information that can emit a strong negative vibration frequency onto you. It’s about quieting the mind & going in & connecting with source. It’s about setting yourself free from the pain & suffering & to let LOVE, yes LOVE in all areas of your life to manifest into beautiful things.
Lately, I’ve been digging into books to help me on my way as well as emerging myself with kinder spirits at a yoga or spiritual development class. It’s a blessing to know that there are others like you that are going threw the same things. It’s ok to talk about it & know that what ever you say will be in a safe & sacred space won’t be spread out like a blazing wildfire cos you knew you told the wrong person. It’s about learning to listen to yourself & your intuition much more than what others want you to do. Trust me, I had my chakras spinning out of control from most of my life, I’ve had trauma like you couldn’t believe, I also know what is likes to have your guidance counselors in high school not take your serious just cos you have a learning disability & to tell you & your parents that you will not amount to much. I get it, I get a lot of things. My own guides guided me to pick up my very own copy of Light Emerging The Journey of Person Healing by Barbara Ann Brennan after one of my last Shirodhara treatments. The book kept on speaking to me, again & again, there was something very familiar with it that was like, I’ve seen this before. I got reading it & everything thing that I’ve been working on at a far deeper level made a lot more sense to me. Yes, my learning disability was a result of a sixth chakra unbalance, but I was able to see things that most that can not see from it & take the path of being a Jedi Knight. It’s more about learning more about who I am really am & how I can weather any storm. However, I might do this on holistic approach that most are not ok with, but so what it’s working for me. Go get lost up a creek would you & let me be the dancer in my own dance. Oh, I just learned about an amazing book too the other night from a friend of mine who we got talking about dyslexia & spirituality. The Gift of Dyslexia, Revised and Expanded: Why Some of the Smartest People Can't Read...and How They Can Learn by Ronald D Davis. I’m hoping to find a greater peace within myself from reading this.
Love Locks, Kennebunkport, Maine
Denise Linn is famous for saying…“Simply clearing your clutter can create miracles in your life!” I will admit that from listing to her Hay House Talk last June really sprang an interest for me to go deeper into the art of feng shui. Getting rid of what no longer serves me, by either giving it away, donating to charity or alternative methods. However, with my approach to this, I will admit that I’ve gone into the fire realm a wee bit  & is known by a dear friend of mine as “a crazy burn woman”. I was guided by my guides to burn certain things on my path to clear the space for me, to break free from the conditions that I created at a much earlier age that clearly does not serve me anymore. However, my family might thinks that I am nuts for burning half of my entire wardrobe. I really had to get rid of the attachment of the label, so what if Coach, Betsy Johnson or Shanghai Tang made these things. That didn’t matter to me. It was more the fact that these things held a great deal of negative energy that I was ready to set myself free from. Was it more the fact that I wanted to make so & so happy who bought these things for me or myself for that matter to the reality that I want to move threw this transformation creating the space that I’ve been hearing from healers, superheroes, writers, artist, etc for some time now. It’s about letting past go, moving ahead on the journey, loving you first & foremost to.
“I give thanks for inspiration it guides my mind along the way
A lot of people get jealous, they're talking about me
But that's just 'cause they haven't got a thing to say

Everybody's rapping like it's a commercial actin' like life is a big commercial
So this is what I've got to say to you all
Be true to yourself and you will never fall
And now I'd like to pass the mic to
The a so what's your name, yauch?”
~The Beastie Boys
Well, I’m going to continue to be the dancer on this dance that I’m dancing on. It’s all about being true to me & learning the art of self love, self responsibility, self care & a parent to my own needs not anyone else. Just got to keep my inner light on all the time & connect to source energy. We are all spiritual beings having a human experience. Go on & open your eyes to the truth. Learn how to listen to yourself, connect with the whale energy & speak the truth. Keep on dancing! It’s about learning the art of being here now, that where you are is where you need to be!

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